I don’t recommend kicking off a long weekend by breaking your knee. But that’s what I’ve done. I was walking home from work and it had rained all day and when I walked into my apartment building there were no caution signs, so I stepped and slipped and boom. I immediately knew something was wrong. […]Read more "a night of romantic firsts at the hospital"
When I’m really depressed it’s not so much a feeling of sadness but of feeling like you don’t have any skin, and the slightest emotional impact hurts 10x more than it should. That, plus going catatonic and/or crying for no discernible reason. And feeling so weighted down that you can barely move. And still I […]Read more "Today is like that"
For almost my entire life, I’ve felt like I was split into two people. It’s not as dramatic as it sounds. I’m not a Siamese twin. From ages 0-4, I was a tiny benevolent monster with curly hair, a big mouth, and a die-hard passion for singing all the time, loudly. To songs I’d fallen […]Read more "internal twinning"
I took a test that said I am a total freak! What a total non-revelation! I actually took the same test at the end of 2016. Three days before the election. There have been fascinating differences: I first scored a 27% in Mistress. As one might expect, they “receive complete control over the life of their […]Read more "and sometimes you switch"
I’m trying a thing where I write on here every day. To see what happens. But is anybody here? Does that matter? What if I scream something filthy into the dark, and then all the lights turn on and a room full of people has been staring at me the whole time? What if that […]Read more "stay tuned because who knows what’ll happen"
The most productive thing I did last night was move from my couch to my bed. This weather has me wanting to curl up and sleep. It’s not terrible. Just get the rest. Listened to a fascinating podcast about Ayurveda that went really, really deep on things I’d been curious about. The body types, and […]Read more "hello"
At 3 pm I’ve been typing for hours and then the screen goes fuzzy. If I have to write one more sentence for my job I’ll fall asleep. I take a walk and come back and still that tired. Why so tired? Things could always be worse. If you complain does that make something negative […]Read more "doesn’t hurt but not quite pleasant"