her quiet kink

do you ever feel like you dreamed the whole thing?

I found myself at a strange party. And you were there watching me.
something good happened

In November 2020, I was not polyamorous. But the early indicators had been simmering. It was days before the election. I was staying with a friend to keep from completely losing my mind. I matched on an app with a nearby man who wore dark clothes, was extremely tall, and had a beautiful sad face.…
the most vulnerable thing I’ve ever told you

Creativity is humiliating. And it is saving my life. I am attempting to draw. When I was a kid. I loved drawing little comics and showing them to people. They were not good. But I loved making them. I’d sketch them on notebook, paper; monsters jumping out and spooking people. Really spooking them. Because they…
the day after a dream explodes in your face

Hi, yes hello. I am still not in Switzerland with my boyfriend. I am still heartbroken. I am still here. Yesterday I did not immediately cry when I woke up. This felt like progress. I went over to my phone and saw 7 texts from my boyfriend (who was flying to Switzerland soon). I had…
so full of improbable hope

My boyfriend asked me to go with him to Switzerland. I’ve been so excited. Never gone on an international trip before with someone I was dating. It has all felt so romantic and glamorous. We talked about plans, we booked tickets to go to a concert, have cute little meals. Eat a ton of cheese.…
so I’m not super sure where I’m going

There’s been more activity this weekend than I expected. Went to dinner and a show with a comet partner last night. He stayed over and neither of us could sleep. I wasn’t sure if it was the full moon or general anxiety or what. Maybe a lack of white noise. I’m not sure if I…
bliss like an animal

I was walking after work, looking at the moon in a cold clear sky, when you texted. I’d asked you what kind of drink I should have. “Well, I could make something for you.” Stopped in my tracks. “You could, huh?” “Sure,” you wrote, “it’s been a while since I did.” It’s never so simple…
joy in the chaos?

I visited my sister. We were on the pier, looking out at the ocean as the sun went down. People were everywhere, spilling all around us, their own babbling river. My sister had a lot to say. So did I. She said she doesn’t feel connected to our family and doesn’t really care about making…
trying to melt my loneliness

There were a couple more days of darkness before I hopped on a plane to the west coast. My partner, who had basically disappeared for several weeks prior, emerged to have dinner with me, twice. The second time, he was very sleepy from the night before, which he said made him remember things better. We…
something horrible could happen or you could be fine

The astrology said not much was going to happen. That didn’t turn out to be true. Last week started with a work email. We were going to be tracked through our computers, and marked “non-compliant” if we weren’t in an office. This information gave me an absolute panic attack. All of my team…